Finding Passion

I guess being the eternal optimist I am always finding the good in all things.  I've realized along the way that when things change or when I am disappointed I may not feel sad for very long.  But boy it's taken a long time to get to this point and in the past I could have easily been the queen of holding grudges.  At least I know I've changed.

Yesterday we had planned to go to a show with one of our favorite bands ever The Parson Red Heads, to our dismay it was canceled and it was our very first canceled show.  I've seen about 60 shows and my husband has seen 95 shows (we keep a excel spreadsheet, that's how serious our music addiction is) and I guess we were due for this to happen, but plans had changed none the less.

I guess the whole point of this blog is that yesterday's canceled show ignited something in me that showed me why I own my business. I found my entrepreneurial spirit still lives in me.  Sometimes when I think it's gone or when it's sleeping, it creeps back in unexpected ways and it's exhilarating when it comes back.  And yesterday it definitely came back in full force.

Here's what happened.  I was so determined to see The Parson Red Heads play that I emailed the venue and asked them to let them play, after they had expressed an interest in going on with the show after the headliner canceled their set and the promoter canceled the whole show altogether.  I was fueled by sheer determination, facebooking and tweeting and trying to get other people riled up for this cause that I totally forgot that I knew nothing about how these shows get set up, but I tried to help the cause anyway even if it pestered a few people. 

I can laugh about it today, because I obviously know nothing about the music industry as far as what channels people go through and as fruitless as my efforts were yesterday the good that came out of it is that I was able to realize why I work full-time for myself, why I started my own company and why I do what I do.

It's because I have a passion for creating, a passion for making gowns from my own mind, being able to build something tangible and real from just a concept and being fueled by something as simple as a flicker or a small spark.

So, to all those people I bothered yesterday, I publicly apologize for my pestering behavior and know that I love the venue even more and one of my favorite bands has moved up to all-time favorite bands.  : )

Have a good day everyone!

(This is what happens to a candle when you don't check up on it after awhile and the smoke alarm goes off)